It's just me.

My cross to bear/Emphysema

Don’t want pity. Did this to myself after all by smoking cigarettes for 34 years. There is this though. I’m starting to have near chronic pain. I get relief from this pain by taking opiates. Lortab or hydrocodone to be specific. Problem: my primary care doctor doesn’t want to write me prescriptions for “narcotics”. Easy for him to say -he’s not the one in pain. I can find Lortab on the street but it’s expensive, about $5 for one 10mg Lortab. I have prescription insurance that will cover 60 for $4. Yet my doctor won’t write me a prescription. I decided when I was diagnosed with Emphysema/COPD that I was NOT going to die in pain. There is no reason on earth I should. A little pain is acceptable and even a necessary indicator that something is wrong. An infection, pneumonia, etc. Constant pain is not and refusing to alleviate that pain is not. Conundrum. Do I find a pain management doctor? Do I have a heart to heart with my current doctor? This what I’m pondering today. Whilst I’m in pain.